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Sunday, October 25, 2015

Love Letters

...to self!

Have you ever noticed how we are quick to make mental lists of ALL the things we perceive wrong with ourselves?!  What if instead we made a list of all the things we DO love...as well as WHY to love the body part or health condition you may find most frustrating?!  Or a part of yourself that has not been shown love...that you criticize and compare.

I have learned over the years to truly honor, respect, and love deeply all aspects of myself....even and especially the parts that I use to compare or judge or cringe at.  I have learned to love myself fully.  I have learned to love myself so well that I now hardly remember the parts that have always been honored and the parts that use to be disrespected. 

What if you took a moment during this last week of October, the last week of the awareness month, and wrote yourself a self care letter.  A love letter!

Let me help you get ideas with my own love letter :-).....

Dear self...dear Kelly!

I love how my hair has wispy curls around my temples. 

I love how my eyelashes are so long they scrape my glasses. 

I love how my shoulders are strong enough to help a friend sand a dresser by holding a sanding machine for four hours straight.  

I love how my hips are firm, full of amazing strongly built muscle to hold me upright and ensure I can bend down to pick up my newspaper each morning. 

I love how when I am sitting cross-legged I can look down to see the flesh formed around my knees and appreciate the muscle that took a great deal of work to build up to support my knees, to be strong, so I can run, jump, and lift with ease.   

I love the flatness of my feet.   It allows me to walk around barefoot most of my day with no pains or aches. 

I love being vertically challenged.  At 5 feet 1 inch I can play hide and seek with my daughter and still crawl into places she doesn't expect me to hide.  

I love how a hat frames my face just the right way.  

I love how feminine a long skirt and simple shirt makes me feel.  

I love how my thyroid reminds me to speak up in matters of importance...especially about self care!

I love how my adrenals communicate to me, my need for sleep and slower days.  

I love how my insulin reminds me to think before I eat.  

I love how my  body desires to be strong and healthy; to glorify God not self!  It communicates to me  how I need to move each day and in what way is most healing for a mind body soul experience, not about aesthetics.   

I love how the veins on my arms make it easy to donate blood.  

I love how the fluid in my legs remind me to sit down and relax or better yet go take a bath!!!

I love how the random wiry hairs on my face remind me to keep my hormones balanced.  

I love the roundness of my face.  How it is able to express th amazing joy I feel for my amazing life.  

Finally...self...I love you for you!

Always in my prayers...many blessings...

PS...now I dare you to write your own love letter list.   I dare you to not smile as you find yourself appreciating and respecting the amazing you rather then comparing and condemning.   I dare you to love you.  I dare you to love the life you're living!!!!

Saturday, October 10, 2015

The Picture of God: How I love and care for myself!

I have soooo many thoughts...soooo many ways I want to share with all WOMEN about how AMAZING each and everyone of you are!!!

I have thoughts I want to share about all the ways we can love ourselves.
Thoughts on how to love ourselves through illness, disease, or any physical complications.
I want to share how struggles can make you you amazing and strong.
How we don't have to compete, compare, or complain.

How to love ourselves NO MATTER WHAT!

This month I am going to share all the ways I have learned to LOVE EVERYTHING about myself...and how I love myself each and everyday!

Loving myself hasn't always been easy....hence why I want to start  with the hardest one...lol....body image....

I read recently about how we should "eat our frogs" first thing in the day.  Meaning do the tough stuff first therefore feeling quite accomplished the rest of the day.

Here I go....eating my frogs...lol....

My journey to loving my body has been beautiful.  It has molded me. It has made me amazingly strong and beautiful!

Through nurture I became susceptible at a young age to dismorphia....I LOVE how this doesn't stop me from pulling the mental curtain aside and seeing GOD every time I smile or glance at the mirror!

My body has been through being objectified....reminding me God sees my true beauty....my soul!

By body has been betrayed by someone I trusted.....strengthening my trust and love to God.

My body has changed many forms, sizes....I HAVE LOVED each size!  I have learned something amazing about my faith....and so many virtues through each size....each shape....how can I not LOVE each size!!!

My body fought and struggled to have my one and only child....my body GAVE LIFE!!!

My body can't carry any other children...BUT IT CONTINUES TO GIVE LIFE TO SO MANY!!!

My body has been extra curvy, straight, firm, soft, slightly curvy, strong....AND I LOVE SEEING A WONDERFUL WARRIOR WOMAN....in each shape...

My body is fighting for it's immune system....I LOVE the electricity my body puts out reminding me it's alive!

My body's hormone system, thyroid, has been asking for extra TLC recently.....I LOVE that I get to do exactly that!

I LOVE knowing this physical body is a shell holding ME....for SO MUCH GOD has in store for me.

I LOVE how GOD strengthens me....teaches me....holds me...LOVES me....IN THIS BODY....ALL STAGES OF IT...AND SO MUCH MORE....

What I love most about this body!?  Is truly, deeply, spiritually knowing I AM MORE than this physical body!!!


Friday, October 9, 2015

Problems to Ponder....THE JOY JOURNEY!

We are inundated with "problems" every day.  Worries, concerns, troubles, whoas, pains....illness...disease....mental....physical...spiritual.....

Do we REALLY understand true suffering!?

I absolutely LOVE it when GOD gives me a swift kick in the butt and reminds me THERE IS SOME ONE who has it harder than me.

Now don't misinterpret...I'm not a complainer at heart.  I am NOT a glass half empty sort of gal.  Yet, with my thyroid flare ups, I have found myself, on occasion, wondering WHEN IS THIS GOING TO END!?

And then I have loving reminders of:

So what if I have to live with a thyroid condition for the rest of my life?
Is it so bad?
Is it so bad that I have to learn to manage my stress?
Is it so bad that I have to ensure I receive proper sleep?
Is it so bad that I have to say no to EVERY opportunity that I just feel compelled to say yes to?
Is it so bad that I have to learn to gracefully accept help?
Is it so bad that I have to learn to take the good with the bad in a totally different way?
Is it so bad that I can't take my body's health for granted?
Is it so bad that I have to smile and enjoy some down time in an afternoon because of a flare up?
Is it so bad that I am given graces to realize there are people dying from cancer...people suffering from ailments that I cannot fathom....and here I have to just learn how to manage a mind body soul approach to my autoimmunity issues....to my many systems screaming at me to care for them!?

I was having a profound conversation with a friend as she witnessed the death and dying of a young mom who had cancer.

The amazing grace and peace this 29 year old has left as a legacy can be explained only as GOD.  How else can a woman who has young children and is dying not get caught up in her personal worries, fears, concerns....but because of GOD....she knows He is Lord....she KNOWS He is holding her and her family.

Thus I say shame on all of us who worry over all the little things.  Even myself.  I am not a worrier by nature but I can get caught up in forgetting this life is a journey....and my season right now is managing and loving every aspect of the health I am in currently in.... because it could be worse....I can get worse...BUT with GOD I CAN AND WILL learn, grow, and love through all of it!!!

So....no more comparing myself to what I was before....did before...etc.....I AM WHO I AM NOW!!!  I desire this for everyone!  Embrace whatever struggle, burden, ailment....you may have and LOVE YOURSELF WITH IT....THROUGH IT....LOVE YOUR LORD WITH IT.....and LOVE YOUR JOURNEY.....

I have always loved Joseph from the bible...but I have been loving Job and Paul even more as well.


And then there is also one of my favorites: Abraham.

I love him because of his trust and faith....willing to sacrifice his child....knowing that yes it would have been heart wrenching....yet he knew his child was never his to begin with.

AND....he walked with a faith of not needing to know every turn GOD wanted him to take on the journey...he was willing to just do it....because HE KNEW it had purpose...THERE WOULD BE FRUIT....

EMBRACE YOUR LOVE OF SELF....EXACTLY HOW YOU ARE NOW! Not the you of yesterday....not the you of tomorrow.....THE YOU OF TODAY!!!

The cliche that "God doesn't give us more than we can handle...."....is interesting to me.....because I think He actually does.  In the sense....that our struggles, our lessons, our journey can feel so heavy sometimes.....but only when we are trying to do it ALONE....when we remember WHO we are living this journey for....THEN REALLY....it is pretty easy....not pain free....not struggle free....just peaceful and amazing....AND FULL OF SO MUCH JOY.....even in the middle of pain and sorrow!


Wednesday, October 7, 2015

Mary, Self-Care, and October!!!

I feel called...driven...a woman on a mission to help ALL women....young and old to LOVE LOVE LOVE themselves!

 This is the thing...we have been sold a lie from society...from the media...that we are "less than" if we aren't a specific size...if we don't have certain measurements....if we don't obtain a certain status in our carriers....if we aren't going going going....

BUT...this is destroying the self-worth of our young girls...our women...

Then if you add in any sort of complication....health (mind, body and or soul)...well...this just makes it even more difficult for a woman to see the warrior they are!

We get mixed messages even within our Christian communities....such as if we are taking care of self well then we are being selfish....and if we are being selfish well we aren't putting GOD first.

Here is my take on this....

Self love...self care....when done with God first and in mind....is always healthy...always beneficial.  Think about it....

If you are waking up in the morning taking a moment to praise God...give HIM your day....then you are loving yourself.  How?  You are saying "Lord I love the life you gave me enough to give you my very first minutes of the day!"

Then when you take a moment either in the morning or later in the day to exercise...move...strengthen your body....you are saying I love myself enough to take care of this body God has gifted me with....THUS I am honoring God by keeping it healthy and strong.

When you let your spouse...friends...coworkers you are going to go to a coffee shop to read or going to a spa for some pampering...you are saying I KNOW I need to step away from the hustle and bustle of life so I can keep balance and perspective with my life....and honoring God's command to "rest"....He wants us to work hard...yes...but HE also needs us to rest....

It is in the rest that we restore, revive, renew our love for self....OUR LOVE FOR THE LORD....

Therefore....if we find ourselves not loving ourselves...comparing...criticizing...counting numbers on the scale or on our plate.....we are truly saying we are not loving GOD!


Well GOD made us....he doesn't make junk!!!  God IS LOVE!!!  God cares about us!!!

When we look in the mirror we should see only the face of GOD not the carnival mirror effect of our society.

I have always found it interesting that the month of October is jammed packed with lots of "awareness's"....breast cancer...heart care....domestic violence....etc....but even more interesting to me is the personal aspect of my faith....

As a Catholic we honor Mary....the mother of Christ....in October!

I don't think it is coincidence that all these awareness's are in the same month as honoring the blessed mother!

Here is a woman who did not succumb to vanity, society, selfish desires....BUT I do believe she took care of herself.  I do believe she understood the power of self-care!

This month I hope to share all the different ways we as women can continue to grow in our self care...our self love...our amazing power of being wonderful warrior women.

Our amazing power of being WONDERFUL WARRIOR WOMEN that is CHRIST centered!

vanity based...
world centered....
unbalanced views....
society based...


A love of self...a care of self...that when you look in the mirror you don't focus on the curves....the physical...but instead you are able to look DEEP into your soul and say....