We all get so pressed and bothered about time.
We don't have enough time for this or that.
We spend too much time doing this or that.
What I have been really learning this last year with this amazing health journey is what do I want to truly spend my time on?
Time is the ONLY thing in life we don't get back. We can't make more of it.
I've been realizing for how much I LOVE LOVE LOVE writing and blogging.....I am starting to spend too much of my time on it. It started out as I was going to spend only 15-30 minutes in the morning on it....keeping it simple and just blogging my immediate thoughts It was to be a place for keeping myself accountable for many different things in life and with my 2016 goals. But then I started spending time adding this or that....reading a bit more on something to share in it..... time adding the pictures.... time to possibly add links....time to post it all to Facebook....google plus....pinterest.....
Thus the question is: Am I spending time that I shouldn't be spending?
I know my time here is good for me. And I hear from others how they enjoy it. BUT I have to reflect: Is the time that I'm spreading ripples outside of my home nurturing ripples within my home? Is it being spent where I should be spending it? Is it the best choice of my time? Is it the best way I can share and spread my love for all!?
Am I utilizing my early morning hours to be the best of my abilities? After all if I have lessons to figure out with some research and prep needed should I be spending that hour after my prayer time on the computer blogging or getting the lesson ready? Is my blogging a distraction and then a frustration because our lessons weren't as fulfilling as they could or should have been? Has it given me the excuse to let my daughter sleep a bit later thus not giving her and I near as much time to just enjoy breathing side by side and read? Walk? Garden? All the things that are SOOO life giving....and face to face! HUMAN CONTACT!
Should I be spending it on emails and Facebook or figuring out some household goals that need to be researched?
Am I allowing my love for writing and research to take more time than it should therefore only nurturing really my love...my desires but not doing what is the better love...the agape love....toward my family, toward my responsibilities.....?!
Isn't there a time and place for everything? Yes God gives us gifts and talents to use, He inspires us to take action. BUT I don't think He intends for us to do it all at once. Sometimes He needs us to sit with a desire, a goal, for a bit to let it grow and grow within us so that once it is ready to bloom it will bloom like a firework!
Maybe my desire to share so much in one place is well TOO MUCH.....too much time being taken away from where GOD desires me to spend my time. This is not to say that the time spent here isn't something HE wants from me. But maybe just learning the discipline of getting up in the morning and adding another type of focus in the morning outside of my morning prayers and workout was what He wanted me to learn and listen to? Maybe the discipline of knowing if I can set aside an hour to blog, write, research, and FB then I can use that same time to do research and develop programs and stuff that I need to take care of for my daughter, family, for GOD......
Maybe this has all taught me that I need to still share but maybe it just needs to be a quick "Hello Good Morning....REMEMBER GOD LOVES YOU TODAY!".....AND THEN SIGN OFF!!! Maybe it just needs to be a picture of something amazing that inspires me.
The question could be asked why not just do the quick simple short stuff on FB? My thoughts are well what if a person isn't on FB and don't have the opportunity to read this blog. Then I step back and think....but who do I write this for? If I am thinking of all who I can reach then am I thinking of myself and ego or is it truly pure in the thoughts that I don't want to miss the opportunity of reaching the person it was meant to reach?!
So many thoughts....so much time.....so much love to think about....
Today I step back.....I add nothing more....I keep it simple to reflect on my TIME....TAKING THE TIME TO TRULY LOVE....FACE TO FACE.....THOSE IN MY LIFE THAT ARE SO DEAR AND IMPORTANT TO ME! I take the time to interact in the way GOD intends us to interact with human contact!
God's love and our ripples of love start at home! Are you sowing your own field with HIS love? Or are you tending to all the other fields with great love and attention but neglecting your own field that it is drying up....or just not quite blooming as well as it could and should with just a bit more attention?!
Where do you spend your time? How do you spend your time? What can you abandon from your "list" to love fuller...love agape style......LOVE AS GOD DESIRES US TO LOVE!!!
hugs and blessings always,